So anyway...don't know what to write about today. Just sitting here listening to the Smashing Pumpkins. Probably going to watch my Family Guy dvds soon. I usually watch an episode before I go to bed. I don't understand my mind sometimes. I wonder if it is a curse to think too much or if it is a good thing. I have an inability to move on from things. I am all excited about moving to Massachusetts, while at the same time I am afraid. I lived on my own for a year a few years back, but decided to move back because I had a lot of debt from being stupid with credit cards. Hence the reason I am 27 and living at home. As I have said before though, my debts will be gone by July, and I figure I should take that oppurtunity to leave this place behind. I have always been too afraid, but I think I have to do it. To find out who I am. I don't think I will ever know if I am so close by to family. Even when I lived in Northern Florida I was back visiting every weekend. I don't want that, plus, my friends live up there and it is the perfect oppurtunity for me to see the things I have always wanted to see. Massachusetts makes me so accesible to where I want to go, such as NYC and most definately going to Edgar Allen Poe's grave on his birthday to catch a glimpse of the mysterious cloaked figure. If you want to know more about that just email me, orian_gray@bellsouth.net">dorian_gray@bellsouth.net. It is something I have always wanted to do and damn it I am going to do it. Also want to go to Cape Cod and visit the potato chip factory. Also the NECCO factory which stands for the New England Confectioner COmpany for those who don't know. Plus there are LOT's of haunted places up there I want to see. Lizzie Borden's house being one of them, plus the Danver's Mental Hospital abandoned since the 50's, and The Spider Gates Cemetery. Rumor has it there are 8 spider web shaped gates and you have to walk around the graveyard to each one...supposedly nobody makes it to all eight since you die before reaching them. You got to love urban legends huh? These are all things I need to do for myself. Plus I have always wanted to be the new kid in town even if it is for just a little while, and even if I am not really physically a kid, but mentally. Anyhow, I think I have rambled enough. Ciao!