I'm so sick of forgetting myself to remember who I am.

I am sure if you read my post you read the one about me going on vacation with my friend Jen. Well here is where the dumb part comes in. For some reason I must have totally forgot I wrote what I did. Want to know why? Because I sent her a link to it yesterday to show her my new theme that I am proud of. So I opened my blog today and realized that that was the first post she must have seen. My heart just sank literally and now I feel sick. That must have come off as some desperate attempt for her to see it. When really it wasn't, I honestly forgot I wrote about it and didn't even think when I sent her the link. So now I just feel like crawling up in a ball. I mean who does this shit anyway? Only me. Give me anything and I will find a way to ruin it. Or maybe I didn't ruin anything. Maybe she thought it was cute...in a desperate way. Oh well, only time will tell. Time for my bro's birthday dinner.